Body Image and Binge Eating

I remember my binge eating days like they were yesterday. Alone. Heart pounding. A mixture of trepidation and excitement. Feeling like I couldn’t get the food in fast enough. No hunger, just the NEED to eat. The fear that someone might see me, catch me. That can’t happen. Quick, get it in and get the wrappers gone. Belly hurts, can’t stop.

Then the emotions would take over. Oh no. What have I done? I swore that I wouldn’t do this again. What is wrong with me? (Insert long narration with constant self-berating here)

These episodes happened often throughout my life. I was so ashamed. I knew it wasn’t healthy, I knew that I should stop, but I couldn’t. It was like the thought of eating would consume me and I felt like I had no choice. I would cancel plans with friends and family so that I could eat; drive around and eat in the car; head straight to the food after everyone else had gone to bed.  And every time I would swear to myself that this would be the last time.

Then I would launch a new plan, a new diet. At first I could follow one for quite some time, drop a few pounds, and feel like I had this eating thing licked. But then I’d find myself surrounded by empty packages and wrappers again, not sure how I got there. Each new attempt at cleaning up my diet lasted less and less time. It got to where the mere idea of cleaning up my diet could trigger a binge.

Binge eating disorder affects 3.5% of women. It’s the most common eating disorder, ahead of anorexia nervosa and bulimia nervosa, and yet it is very difficult to find professional help for it.

I reached out many times to doctors and counsellors. Sadly, they didn’t understand what it was to binge eat. They had very little to offer other than scanty advice involving food pyramids and restrictions. When I told them what I ate they visibly cringed, which only added to my shame and embarrassment. Each time this happened, I retreated further and further inside myself.

It took me a long time to develop a healthy relationship with both my food and my body, by creating a process that involves the mind, body and heart. This was sorely missing from the little information that I could find out there about binge eating. Every program seemed to only work on one part at a time. A large reason that I chose naturopathic medicine was because it is a whole body approach to medicine. Why would this be any different?

If you’re struggling with controlling your food, if you’re disgusted with what you see in the mirror, please know that I’ve been there. You are not alone. A new diet is not the answer. You know that. You just didn’t know there was another way out. There is.

Don’t let shame keep you trapped in this cycle any longer. Your life is waiting for you. Let me help you get back to it.

Book your free Food Sanity Session to find out how you can end the war that’s been waging between you, your body, and food.

We can meet in person, or via phone or Skype if that is more comfortable for you. Just include a phone number or skype ID in the comment section when you book your session, and I will contact you there.

Until then,

Dr. Kerri Fullerton ND